| | "he who angers you controls you"
thus read one of the many church signs i drive by all the time...i cant escape church signs...they are a distict part of southern "bible belt" culture and im sure a cultural element for much of the states...
anyways...along the lines of church signs there are ones that make me
smile, laugh, think, and then those that anger and frustrate...most of
the time however i misread them and think them rediculous...o the joys
of being dyslexic...then however there are those that make me squurm
(yes, i like the second u...and i couldnt help but spelling it like
that)...you know the ones that you just have to say, "hmm...is that
right?"...and then you laugh, knowing its just another church sign...
"he who angers you controls you"
--hmmm...is that right?-- i had such a problem with this one as i read
it coming home from work about a week ago...i couldnt get around the
underlying message in this...the way i read it, is that something that
controls you is apparently evil, or if not that, then you are sinning
to be controlled by it...
i was really unhappy with this message because i dont believe that
being angry is a sin...and thus if someone angers me...heck, he's not
making me sin...and heck no, he's not controlling me...
lately ive been debating in my head what is the reality of emotion and
connectedness...and what effects us and touches us and changes us...
"as humans...what do we let interact with us intimately?"
this has been the posing question forming over and over and why in the
world do we allow such things...are they good for us? to feel certain
ways...to be dissapointed...to be sad...to be angry...to absolutely
feel lost...to not know for certain what is going on...or what should
for that matter...
"feelings...as feelings...emotion...is that sin?"
so as these debates have filled my head...ive really been painfully
experiencing emotion lately...and my actions havent always been that
great...returning challenges with hurtful retorts...tearing those
around me down...keeping them distant...pushing myself from feeling...
"why?"
i feel myself wondering this alot...i fear being known...and knowing
for that matter...but here lately, ive felt...and thats been good (more
like great)...but my reaction to emotion has not been that of
acceptance and endurrance...ive on the other hand rebelled and ran from
feeling...i hide from emotion the moment i interract with it...and in
those connections of feeling which have been everywhere for me
lately...i find myself angry...
"angry or controlled?"
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